As a child, my mother [single parent] implied that all things were possible. Nothing was off the table, and from a young age, I endorsed the fantastic as validated reality. All of that changed during my twenties when I became a professional and started wearing a tie. Suddenly, I decided that growing up must include shutting down the [nothing’s impossible] area of my brain.

I would spend my twenties, thirties, and most of my forties searching for a normal life. This life would include marriage, divorce, and eventually multiple bad relationships. The last of which transformed into something comparable to the ugliness of combat.

Sadly, I allowed myself to settle; investing too many years into a toxic relationship. In the end, the people I’d attempted to call family had done the unspeakable. Evil was invited into our home. Refusing to embrace their foul way of life, I was eventually demoted to unwelcome houseguest. Some day I may share the entire story, but that day hasn’t come yet.

What does this mean? I made a decision that I cannot take back? Well, I asked the Universe for something that already belonged to me. No, this doesn’t have anything to do with darkness or evil. Although, the details of that experience are sensitive. Further disclosure of something so personal would not be wisdom. Besides, now that I’ve reconciled with the mother of my children, my wife doesn’t like to hear me speak of such things.

Even if I knew what was going to happen, I could not have prepared myself for the transformation that would begin to take place before sunrise.

Joseph Shanklin

August 23, 2020

2 thoughts on “Journals [Embracing The Universe Part II of III Speaking The Words]

  1. I love that you mum encouraged you to believe everything was possible, it’s just a shame that positivity and zest for doing, risking and achieving gets sucked out of us by life. I’m also really sorry to read about how things went south in the last year of your marriage and what happened with your family. “I made a choice to accept myself for who I am” < that is something that some people go their whole lives without doing. You should be proud for making what was likely an uncomfortable decision to be able to be yourself and get your life on a track that suited you, not one you felt railroaded onto or that life steered you towards.
    Caz xx

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