The countdown continues. In two days, I’ll board an airplane to Texas once more. Unlike the previous 16 trips I’ve taken in the past 14 months, this ticket is not a roundtrip flight.
Why would I return to Colorado if everything I want and need in Texas. Except for a few members of our family, there hasn’t been anything essential holding me to Denver since around 2008. That, of course, is when my wife and kids moved to Texas. Well, ex-wife then and becoming wife once more now. We’ve been separated from each other for about 20 years.
Since our divorce, I’ve wandered in the darkness, searching for the one thing that could set me free from my prison. No, not sobriety or even discovering God. I’ve known since birth that God is undeniably true, and I didn’t choose to remain sober until three years ago. The problem was within my mind. I was not comfortable in my skin. Why? I didn’t know my own identity. The solution did not come from medication or therapy. The answer is complicated. I’ve written a 400-page novel to explain the process. If I can finish my editing, I may eventually share it with the world. Publishing my book after moving to Texas is one of my highest priorities. I cannot imagine such a world—a world where I haven’t finished a project so dear to my heart.
I’ve been writing and posting here for two and a half years. I understand why writing is sometimes referred to as [self-expressive therapy]. I question where I’d be without my love of WRITING. And, I must not overlook my love of READING. I’ve discovered so many bright and talented authors on WordPress. Don’t tell my wife, but I’d like to give WordPress a big kiss. Well, as long as she’s a woman. Hmmmmmm . . . well . . . either way, I’d still be in trouble.
For everyone, I’ve connected to in the past two and a half years, thank you so much for reading and writing. Even though it’s not even close to being over, I’m preparing to begin a new chapter in my life. Unlike the past 20 years, this time, I will not be alone in the darkness.
P.S. The Chapstick is . . . well . . . an entirely different story for another day.
December 19, 2021