Reflection of Self

Recently, I posted something about my Crash Report. [Crash Report] is the name I have given to my Dream Journals. Back in January, I began recording my dreams. The key, of course, is documenting every available detail as soon as I open my eyes. Otherwise, as you undoubtedly know, the dream tends to fade away. … Continue reading Reflection of Self

Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery]

Unfortunately for the addict, the enemy is addiction, and addiction has unlimited resources. Yes, our enemy has been planning for battle, going to war, and killing addicts since coping skills first came into existence. Like combat, the battle of maintaining sobriety is a fluid situation, and the enemy [addiction] is watching every move we make, … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery]

Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict

Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict One of the drawbacks of being an overachiever is that it applies to everything within one's life. In the case of addiction, the ability to overachieve can be dangerous, lead to incarceration, or in many cases, early death. The problem lies within the person's wants and needs for more … Continue reading Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict

My Thoughts This Morning [Selective Memory]

I've always wondered why some individuals have [Selective Memory]. I'm not speaking of [lying through their teeth], but instead those persons who seem to believe their bullshit. Not having done the research, I can only speculate. Do these people have issues with reality? Do they have long or short-term memory problems? Is it some kind … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Selective Memory]

My Thoughts This Morning [Seeing Who They Are]

I find myself thankful for so many things. During the shutdown, I was grateful for having an essential job in the world of infrastructure. During the Spring of 2019, I decided to stop being a Culinary Chef. If I hadn't made that change, I undoubtedly would have been sitting home. These days, people are paid … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Seeing Who They Are]

My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Last week while attending a Zoom support group, I heard someone say, "when do the arguments stop?" The individual was referring to the battle in their mind between maintaining sobriety and relapsing. Even though it's been a while since I've self-debated getting high, I can remember that argument well. If I remember correctly, it goes … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery Re-posted]

Title: Careful What You Wish For Unfortunately for the addict, the enemy is addiction, and addiction has unlimited resources. Yes, our enemy has been planning for battle, going to war, and killing addicts since the beginning of time. For the recovering addict, achieving sobriety is only the beginning, like taking the first swing or firing … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery Re-posted]

The Empath [Painful Connections]

Last night before bed, I watched a movie on Netflix titled Frozen Ground [2013]. The film is based on a true story. Robert Hansen is a serial killer who brutally raped and murdered between 17 to 21 women in the late 1970s and early 1980s in Alaska. Pictures of the murdered women are shown at … Continue reading The Empath [Painful Connections]

The Journals [Chaos In Montana]

This will not be the first time I've written about one of the incredible bonehead mistakes that I have made. For most readers, this piece will come across as terrifying, and over the top dangerous. Who in their right mind would allow their life to become so filled with insanity? For those of us who … Continue reading The Journals [Chaos In Montana]

The Journals [Contract Over]

Looking back, I believe my wife always knew that we would get divorced. The relationship lasted for more than ten years, but at some point, approximately seven years into the marriage, her attitude began to change. And then it happened, one year before everything came to a screeching halt, she disclosed the inevitable. She said, … Continue reading The Journals [Contract Over]