My Personal Evolution

A Journal Introduction From stinging monster, soaring eagle, and phoenix rising, I have evolved through the ranks of Scorpio, ultimately emerging from the ashes of decay. When I proceeded to begin blogging two years ago, I had only recently returned from the land of the dead. Or, as some may see it: The drug world. … Continue reading My Personal Evolution

My Thoughts This Morning [Just Say Maybe]

Recently, I came across an intriguing article about addiction recovery. This particular piece compared the following: (A) Quitting through a structured program, such as The Twelve Steps. (B) Quitting through abstinence. The abstinence method eliminated the use of a Higher Power and focused exclusively on the concept of the addict being their own Higher Power. … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Just Say Maybe]

What’s Next?

Following four years of drug use, I sobered up 28 months ago. Shortly after cleaning up, I began writing. I fell in love with writing instantly, swearing myself to her for life. Oh yes, for myself [Writing] is a woman. How else could I explain such an intimate relationship? Fortunately, my wife has witnessed the … Continue reading What’s Next?

I’m Back From My Son’s Graduation

My personal list of mistakes and bad decisions is extensive. Some of them I've written about, and others continue to remain on hold. I've had more than my share of failures, but I excel in one particular area of life. Together with my wife, I have made two beautiful and amazing children. Both of my … Continue reading I’m Back From My Son’s Graduation

Do Not Suffer In Silence

I will not live in the past, but sometimes the darkness pushes its way towards the front of my mind. It feels like a dream in many ways; foggy memories of another life and world—a hazy drug-filled landscape spilling over with bandits and mayhem. Much like World History, we cannot afford to forget the past … Continue reading Do Not Suffer In Silence

Okay Fine, I Did See It Coming

A few years ago, during my running and gunning days, I often questioned my destiny. More specifically, would a life of loneliness and solitude not only be necessary but desired. Following years of pain and tragedy, I was prepared to spend the remainder of my life alone. My mindset was clear. I must live out … Continue reading Okay Fine, I Did See It Coming

Blessings All Around Us

Without question, the Global Pandemic has brought pain and suffering to millions of people around the world. I would never attempt to minimize or dismiss what others have experienced. Furthermore, I do not want to come across as [rubbing salt in the wounds of the injured]. That said, I believe we should all stop, sharpen … Continue reading Blessings All Around Us

Damages Part I [Spring 2019]

Pictured: My Wife Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope … Continue reading Damages Part I [Spring 2019]

Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether … Continue reading Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

The Voice of Addiction Copied from my Newsletter Column. If you are an addict, chances are you know about the little voice. What's the little voice? You know, that whisper in the back of your mind telling you it's going to be okay. Sadly, it's not going to be okay unless you learn how to … Continue reading The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]