Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether … Continue reading Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

The Voice of Addiction Copied from my Newsletter Column. If you are an addict, chances are you know about the little voice. What's the little voice? You know, that whisper in the back of your mind telling you it's going to be okay. Sadly, it's not going to be okay unless you learn how to … Continue reading The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Part IV So much has happened between that day in court and today. In many ways, I'm a completely different person. In some ways, I'm the same man that my wife married 30 years ago before I fell to drugs. One thing has remained constant throughout each chapter of my life; I love my wife … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Let’s Not Turn Away

Every Friday evening, I attend an Addictions Counseling Meeting via Zoom. I've been listening to and speaking with this group of people for about two years. Some of the names and faces have changed, but the core group has mostly remained consistent. I care about them. The holidays are upon us. Unfortunately, for many people, … Continue reading Let’s Not Turn Away

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part III]

Part III As a young couple we had agreed to break ugly cycles that had plagued our families [mostly mine], but I had broken my promise by choosing drugs over love. Always the protective mother first, my wife did what was necessary to prevent our children from having to grow up within a dysfunctional household. … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part III]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part II]

Note to the reader: I'd like to take this opportunity to say this. At no point during our relationship was my wife weak or blind to what was happening. Her faith and love for me provided the strength to fight for our relationship. Part II The addiction raging within my mind was winning. Occasionally, I … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part II]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part I]

Recently, my wife asked me why I love her. I decided to use thousands of words for the answer. Part I I held my wife above everything else on Earth. She was my World, and I loved her unconditionally. I embraced my role of loving husband completely and considered myself the most fortunate man alive … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part I]

Why I Love Her [Introduction]

One particular morning last week, I woke up knowing that I had to do something immediately after making coffee. Two days after posting [Why I Love Her Part I], I pulled it back down. Why? Because I had made the mistake of posting something highly emotional without proper explanation. Why I Love Her is the … Continue reading Why I Love Her [Introduction]

Graduation Day

Today was an incredibly important day for me. This afternoon, I graduated from an Outpatient Drug Therapy Program. If you have not read those posts, I've been in treatment for the past two years. During these last two years, I have built an incredible new life and made a few fantastic accomplishments. I have started … Continue reading Graduation Day