Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict

Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict One of the drawbacks of being an overachiever is that it applies to everything within one's life. In the case of addiction, the ability to overachieve can be dangerous, lead to incarceration, or in many cases, early death. The problem lies within the person's wants and needs for more … Continue reading Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict

My Thoughts This Morning [Selective Memory]

I've always wondered why some individuals have [Selective Memory]. I'm not speaking of [lying through their teeth], but instead those persons who seem to believe their bullshit. Not having done the research, I can only speculate. Do these people have issues with reality? Do they have long or short-term memory problems? Is it some kind … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Selective Memory]

My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Last week while attending a Zoom support group, I heard someone say, "when do the arguments stop?" The individual was referring to the battle in their mind between maintaining sobriety and relapsing. Even though it's been a while since I've self-debated getting high, I can remember that argument well. If I remember correctly, it goes … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery Re-posted]

Title: Careful What You Wish For For the recovering addict, achieving sobriety is only the beginning, like taking the first swing or firing the first shot. And why do we fire that first shot? We do it because we are not afraid to face the inevitable war of maintaining sobriety and saving our lives. Unfortunately … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery Re-posted]

Damages Part II [The World is a Serial Killer]

Damages Part 2, The World Is A Serial Killer Please sit back, relax, and do your best to keep an open mind. In order to get the most out of what you're preparing to read, you will need to try and empathize with someone who's empathizing. It's Friday morning, and you've just arrived at your … Continue reading Damages Part II [The World is a Serial Killer]

Damages Part I, Re-posted August 2019

Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether healthy … Continue reading Damages Part I, Re-posted August 2019

The Journals [Chaos In Montana]

This will not be the first time I've written about one of the incredible bonehead mistakes that I have made. For most readers, this piece will come across as terrifying, and over the top dangerous. Who in their right mind would allow their life to become so filled with insanity? For those of us who … Continue reading The Journals [Chaos In Montana]

The Urine Test For Drugs

Some of you may know from my writing that I'm on probation. When I finish in a few weeks, it will have been 22 months since I started in December of 2018. I've completed hundreds of drug tests. I take 3 or 4 drug tests each week. Of everything, probation requires of me; this is … Continue reading The Urine Test For Drugs

The Journals [28 Pounds of Weed]

Like everyone else in this world, I've been changing and growing all of my life. So many of the things I used to hate or not care for have become very important to me. As a young man, I didn't have any patience or love for the Crow. Yes, the bird. Several years ago, I … Continue reading The Journals [28 Pounds of Weed]

If I Died Today, Have I Paid For My Sins?

I am 52 years old. Of those 52 years, I used street drugs for 11 years. Following my first divorce from 1997 to 2003. And, after my second divorce from 2015 to 2018. Both periods of drug abuse ended with a conviction for drug possession. The first [two charges], resulted in a community corrections sentence, … Continue reading If I Died Today, Have I Paid For My Sins?