Do Not Suffer In Silence

I will not live in the past, but sometimes the darkness pushes its way towards the front of my mind. It feels like a dream in many ways; foggy memories of another life and world—a hazy drug-filled landscape spilling over with bandits and mayhem. Much like World History, we cannot afford to forget the past … Continue reading Do Not Suffer In Silence

The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

The Voice of Addiction Copied from my Newsletter Column. If you are an addict, chances are you know about the little voice. What's the little voice? You know, that whisper in the back of your mind telling you it's going to be okay. Sadly, it's not going to be okay unless you learn how to … Continue reading The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part III]

Part III As a young couple we had agreed to break ugly cycles that had plagued our families [mostly mine], but I had broken my promise by choosing drugs over love. Always the protective mother first, my wife did what was necessary to prevent our children from having to grow up within a dysfunctional household. … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part III]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part I]

Recently, my wife asked me why I love her. I decided to use thousands of words for the answer. Part I I held my wife above everything else on Earth. She was my World, and I loved her unconditionally. I embraced my role of loving husband completely and considered myself the most fortunate man alive … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part I]

Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict

Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict One of the drawbacks of being an overachiever is that it applies to everything within one's life. In the case of addiction, the ability to overachieve can be dangerous, lead to incarceration, or in many cases, early death. The problem lies within the person's wants and needs for more … Continue reading Deadly Path of The Overachieving Addict

My Thoughts This Morning [Selective Memory]

I've always wondered why some individuals have [Selective Memory]. I'm not speaking of [lying through their teeth], but instead those persons who seem to believe their bullshit. Not having done the research, I can only speculate. Do these people have issues with reality? Do they have long or short-term memory problems? Is it some kind … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Selective Memory]

My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Last week while attending a Zoom support group, I heard someone say, "when do the arguments stop?" The individual was referring to the battle in their mind between maintaining sobriety and relapsing. Even though it's been a while since I've self-debated getting high, I can remember that argument well. If I remember correctly, it goes … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Damages Part II [The World is a Serial Killer]

Damages Part 2, The World Is A Serial Killer Please sit back, relax, and do your best to keep an open mind. In order to get the most out of what you're preparing to read, you will need to try and empathize with someone who's empathizing. It's Friday morning, and you've just arrived at your … Continue reading Damages Part II [The World is a Serial Killer]

Copied From My Column In The Adams County Drug Court Newsletter [October 2019]

[WARNING] Strong Adult Language. Parental Guidance is Suggested. My fellow Adams County Drug Court Clients, I am writing this for you because we are at war. I want you to have plenty of ammunition. I want you to have as many high capacity magazines as you can carry for your upcoming battle against the enemy, … Continue reading Copied From My Column In The Adams County Drug Court Newsletter [October 2019]

Careful What You Wish For [Updated Version]

[WARNING] Strong Adult Language. Parental Guidance is Suggested. Careful What You Wish For My fellow Adams County Drug Court Clients, I am writing this for you because we are at war, and I want you to have plenty of ammunition, in fact I want you to have as many high capacity magazines as you can … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Updated Version]