Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether … Continue reading Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Part IV So much has happened between that day in court and today. In many ways, I'm a completely different person. In some ways, I'm the same man that my wife married 30 years ago before I fell to drugs. One thing has remained constant throughout each chapter of my life; I love my wife … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Why I Love Her [Introduction]

One particular morning last week, I woke up knowing that I had to do something immediately after making coffee. Two days after posting [Why I Love Her Part I], I pulled it back down. Why? Because I had made the mistake of posting something highly emotional without proper explanation. Why I Love Her is the … Continue reading Why I Love Her [Introduction]

I’ve Been Waiting For This Day

Following years of pain, struggle, and eventually rebirth, this day has finally come to pass. When I stop and gaze back at the mountain, it's difficult not to become paralyzed with disbelief. I find myself whispering, "I've done it." For several weeks, I have been counting the days, patiently waiting for this incredibly special moment … Continue reading I’ve Been Waiting For This Day

Relapse Prevention Tools [Buying Time]

Last night during my Friday evening Drug Therapy Zoom Meeting, someone opened up about a recent drug relapse. I wanted to share what I told the gentleman last night. Once a person has decided to use, sometimes the outcome may be altered if they can buy themselves some time. We need to delete and erase … Continue reading Relapse Prevention Tools [Buying Time]

Graduation Day

Today was an incredibly important day for me. This afternoon, I graduated from an Outpatient Drug Therapy Program. If you have not read those posts, I've been in treatment for the past two years. During these last two years, I have built an incredible new life and made a few fantastic accomplishments. I have started … Continue reading Graduation Day

Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery]

Unfortunately for the addict, the enemy is addiction, and addiction has unlimited resources. Yes, our enemy has been planning for battle, going to war, and killing addicts since coping skills first came into existence. Like combat, the battle of maintaining sobriety is a fluid situation, and the enemy [addiction] is watching every move we make, … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery]

My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Last week while attending a Zoom support group, I heard someone say, "when do the arguments stop?" The individual was referring to the battle in their mind between maintaining sobriety and relapsing. Even though it's been a while since I've self-debated getting high, I can remember that argument well. If I remember correctly, it goes … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery Re-posted]

Title: Careful What You Wish For Unfortunately for the addict, the enemy is addiction, and addiction has unlimited resources. Yes, our enemy has been planning for battle, going to war, and killing addicts since the beginning of time. For the recovering addict, achieving sobriety is only the beginning, like taking the first swing or firing … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Addiction & Recovery Re-posted]