Panhandlers & Addiction

Pictured: A small pile of pre-made ready-to-go signs. We've all seen them, those individuals who spend their days asking strangers for money. Some stand outside the store, asking for change. Others hold a cardboard sign and sit or stand along an intersection or highway offramp. And a few roam from parking lot to parking lot, … Continue reading Panhandlers & Addiction

Damages [Spring 2019]

This was one of my first pieces of writing. At the time, I was still in my first year of sobriety. Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect … Continue reading Damages [Spring 2019]

Careful What You Wish For [Re-post From September 2019]

Careful What You Wish For Re-post Unfortunately for the addict, the enemy is addiction, and addiction has unlimited resources. Yes, our enemy has been planning for battle, going to war, and killing addicts since coping skills first came into existence. Like combat, the battle of maintaining sobriety is a fluid situation, and the enemy [addiction] … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Re-post From September 2019]

Do Not Suffer In Silence

I will not live in the past, but sometimes the darkness pushes its way towards the front of my mind. It feels like a dream in many ways; foggy memories of another life and world—a hazy drug-filled landscape spilling over with bandits and mayhem. Much like World History, we cannot afford to forget the past … Continue reading Do Not Suffer In Silence

Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether … Continue reading Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Part IV So much has happened between that day in court and today. In many ways, I'm a completely different person. In some ways, I'm the same man that my wife married 30 years ago before I fell to drugs. One thing has remained constant throughout each chapter of my life; I love my wife … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Why I Love Her [Introduction]

One particular morning last week, I woke up knowing that I had to do something immediately after making coffee. Two days after posting [Why I Love Her Part I], I pulled it back down. Why? Because I had made the mistake of posting something highly emotional without proper explanation. Why I Love Her is the … Continue reading Why I Love Her [Introduction]

I’ve Been Waiting For This Day

Following years of pain, struggle, and eventually rebirth, this day has finally come to pass. When I stop and gaze back at the mountain, it's difficult not to become paralyzed with disbelief. I find myself whispering, "I've done it." For several weeks, I have been counting the days, patiently waiting for this incredibly special moment … Continue reading I’ve Been Waiting For This Day

Relapse Prevention Tools [Buying Time]

Last night during my Friday evening Drug Therapy Zoom Meeting, someone opened up about a recent drug relapse. I wanted to share what I told the gentleman last night. Once a person has decided to use, sometimes the outcome may be altered if they can buy themselves some time. We need to delete and erase … Continue reading Relapse Prevention Tools [Buying Time]