Last week while attending a Zoom support group, I heard someone say, "when do the arguments stop?" The individual was referring to the battle in their mind between maintaining sobriety and relapsing. Even though it's been a while since I've self-debated getting high, I can remember that argument well. If I remember correctly, it goes … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]
I am 52 years old. Of those 52 years, I used street drugs for 11 years. Following my first divorce from 1997 to 2003. And, after my second divorce from 2015 to 2018. Both periods of drug abuse ended with a conviction for drug possession. The first [two charges], resulted in a community corrections sentence, … Continue reading If I Died Today, Have I Paid For My Sins?
DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, letting us know that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether healthy … Continue reading Damages [Spring 2019]
Once more, I'm writing this to you—the addict in need of a message. I'll keep it short. Since the beginning of the pandemic, we have been tested again and again. As expected, not everyone has passed the test of sobriety. A large percentage of Adams County Drug Court Clients have relapsed. This is the journey … Continue reading Copied From My Newsletter Column
This was my first piece last year, the one that started it all for me. Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable we protect ourselves, hearts, minds, and sometimes our … Continue reading Damages [Spring 2019]
I decided that I'd rather write these words here, to you, then on Facebook or anywhere else. I need to place them somewhere. I'll keep it short. After seven months of living in a Sober House, then moving out and into a three-bedroom house, finally renting free and clear, like a grown-up, I might go … Continue reading The Sober Life,
DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain letting us know that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable we protect ourselves, our hearts and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether healthy … Continue reading Damages Part 1, RePost
Damages 4, Another Bus Ride Are you down? Is your imagination down? How 'bout it, one more time? Relax, keep your eyes open though, so that you can read. What a beautiful warm sunny day, not quite hot, with a just enough wind. The weekend was not a mirage, not having to work today feels … Continue reading Damages 4, Another Bus Ride
The necessity of pain, who would we be without it? We will never know. For those individuals spending their entire life reliving the pain with each pull of a trigger, it can be a never-ending story, not unlike the movie Groundhog Day. (I recommend the movie) Like most of what I write, this piece comes … Continue reading Damages 3, Flashbacks
INTRODUCTION Warning, kind of a long read, but worth it... Writing used to be such an unclimbable mountain to me, something that I would never be able to achieve in my life. In fact, I didn't like writing. The love that I used to have for reading has been transformed into a new love for … Continue reading Damages Part 2, The World is a Serial Killer.