I am 52 years old. Of those 52 years, I used street drugs for 11 years. Following my first divorce from 1997 to 2003. And, after my second divorce from 2015 to 2018. Both periods of drug abuse ended with a conviction for drug possession. The first [two charges], resulted in a community corrections sentence, … Continue reading If I Died Today, Have I Paid For My Sins?
Addiction, Careful What You Wish For From The Universe University Series. I could easily write 100K words on the subject of addiction, but not today, today, I'll keep it to one page. If you're reading this on my blog, then odds are you already know that getting sober is only the beginning, kind of like … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For, from The Universe University Series.
The Transfer Series, Introduction & Part 1 Introduction Upon completion of 'Another Bus Ride', I immediately had regrets and came very close to going back and changing the entire story. Not because of inaccuracies, or untruthful details, but because I'd omitted the majority of the emotional difficulties associated with empathic connections. If you've read 'Damages … Continue reading The Transfer Series, Introduction & Part 1
To Myself, When I woke up this morning and made the discovery, nothing, not one tear. It happened just as I had expected, and all of the signs had warned me of. The knowing and the seeing can at times still seem like a curse instead of a necessary discerning qualifier. It's not that I … Continue reading Universe University, Not One Tear
Damages 4, Another Bus Ride Are you down? Is your imagination down? How 'bout it, one more time? Relax, keep your eyes open though, so that you can read. What a beautiful warm sunny day, not quite hot, with a just enough wind. The weekend was not a mirage, not having to work today feels … Continue reading Damages 4, Another Bus Ride
The necessity of pain, who would we be without it? We will never know. For those individuals spending their entire life reliving the pain with each pull of a trigger, it can be a never-ending story, not unlike the movie Groundhog Day. (I recommend the movie) Like most of what I write, this piece comes … Continue reading Damages 3, Flashbacks
INTRODUCTION Warning, kind of a long read, but worth it... Writing used to be such an unclimbable mountain to me, something that I would never be able to achieve in my life. In fact, I didn't like writing. The love that I used to have for reading has been transformed into a new love for … Continue reading Damages Part 2, The World is a Serial Killer.
Owning Your Shit, Part 1 Keeping Your Power This post is copied from my column. I write for the Adams County Drug Court Newsletter. My people, the recovering addict and alcoholic. I listen to their words, read their testimonials, and I feel their pain. Their struggle is my struggle. Not only is the struggle real, … Continue reading Owning Your Shit Part 1, Keeping Your Power