My Thoughts This Morning [Seeing Who They Are]

I find myself thankful for so many things. During the shutdown, I was grateful for having an essential job in the world of infrastructure. During the Spring of 2019, I decided to stop being a Culinary Chef. If I hadn't made that change, I undoubtedly would have been sitting home. These days, people are paid … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Seeing Who They Are]

My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Last week while attending a Zoom support group, I heard someone say, "when do the arguments stop?" The individual was referring to the battle in their mind between maintaining sobriety and relapsing. Even though it's been a while since I've self-debated getting high, I can remember that argument well. If I remember correctly, it goes … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [The Argument]

Journals [Embracing The Universe Part III, Choosing Stupid Over Crazy]

I asked the Universe for something. No, this doesn't have anything to do with anything dark or evil. Although I'm not going to tell you what I asked for. The details of that experience are sensitive. Further disclosure of something so personal would not be wise. Even if somehow I had known what was going … Continue reading Journals [Embracing The Universe Part III, Choosing Stupid Over Crazy]

The Journals [Finding Treasure]

Throughout my life, I've been finding things of value. For those who have spent time with me during the past five years, quite a few of my friends have watched me score where there should not be a score. It was happening so often a few years ago, that a few people thought I had … Continue reading The Journals [Finding Treasure]

Cheering For The [Blue] Underdog

For nearly two years, I've been building a new [sober] life for myself. I've had as much as ten years sobriety before, but this is the first time I have known with complete absolution, that I do not have any desire to self-medicate. If you would have asked me two years ago how I felt … Continue reading Cheering For The [Blue] Underdog

The Journals [How I Came to Denver Colorado & My First Career]

I moved to Denver, Colorado, in 1988, at the age of 19. Coming from a small town of fewer than 3,000 people, I was not prepared for life in the big city. None of my family lives here in Denver, Colorado. Thirty years ago, I only knew a handful of people; my half-sister's ex-husband and … Continue reading The Journals [How I Came to Denver Colorado & My First Career]

My Thoughts This Morning [Pride]

This piece was inspired by something I read this week on another blog—an article from a very talented writer. Approximately 25 years ago, my work supervisor said to me, "pride is overrated." Up until that moment, I hadn't thought about it like that. I've been thinking about it ever since then. Pride is destructive. It … Continue reading My Thoughts This Morning [Pride]

If I Died Today, Have I Paid For My Sins?

I am 52 years old. Of those 52 years, I used street drugs for 11 years. Following my first divorce from 1997 to 2003. And, after my second divorce from 2015 to 2018. Both periods of drug abuse ended with a conviction for drug possession. The first [two charges], resulted in a community corrections sentence, … Continue reading If I Died Today, Have I Paid For My Sins?