Careful What You Wish For [Re-post From September 2019]

Careful What You Wish For Re-post Unfortunately for the addict, the enemy is addiction, and addiction has unlimited resources. Yes, our enemy has been planning for battle, going to war, and killing addicts since coping skills first came into existence. Like combat, the battle of maintaining sobriety is a fluid situation, and the enemy [addiction] … Continue reading Careful What You Wish For [Re-post From September 2019]

What’s Next?

Following four years of drug use, I sobered up 28 months ago. Shortly after cleaning up, I began writing. I fell in love with writing instantly, swearing myself to her for life. Oh yes, for myself [Writing] is a woman. How else could I explain such an intimate relationship? Fortunately, my wife has witnessed the … Continue reading What’s Next?

Do Not Suffer In Silence

I will not live in the past, but sometimes the darkness pushes its way towards the front of my mind. It feels like a dream in many ways; foggy memories of another life and world—a hazy drug-filled landscape spilling over with bandits and mayhem. Much like World History, we cannot afford to forget the past … Continue reading Do Not Suffer In Silence

Damages Part I [Spring 2019]

Pictured: My Wife Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope … Continue reading Damages Part I [Spring 2019]

Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

Title: DAMAGES Avoiding pain is natural. In fact, that's why it's there. Pain is a signal to the brain, informing us that something is wrong. Through our efforts to avoid the uncomfortable, we protect ourselves, our hearts, minds, and sometimes our lives. It's in this way that most people understand and cope with pain. Whether … Continue reading Damages [Re-posted From Spring 2019]

The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

The Voice of Addiction Copied from my Newsletter Column. If you are an addict, chances are you know about the little voice. What's the little voice? You know, that whisper in the back of your mind telling you it's going to be okay. Sadly, it's not going to be okay unless you learn how to … Continue reading The Voice of Addiction [Copied from my Newsletter Column]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part V]

Part V Now more than 20 years later, I've become the man my wife wanted and prayed for me to be. All of this time, it's been her words echoing within my mind, driving me to become a man who honors his wife and children. Since we first met more than 30 years ago, we've … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part V]

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Part IV So much has happened between that day in court and today. In many ways, I'm a completely different person. In some ways, I'm the same man that my wife married 30 years ago before I fell to drugs. One thing has remained constant throughout each chapter of my life; I love my wife … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part IV]

Let’s Not Turn Away

Every Friday evening, I attend an Addictions Counseling Meeting via Zoom. I've been listening to and speaking with this group of people for about two years. Some of the names and faces have changed, but the core group has mostly remained consistent. I care about them. The holidays are upon us. Unfortunately, for many people, … Continue reading Let’s Not Turn Away

How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part II]

Note to the reader: I'd like to take this opportunity to say this. At no point during our relationship was my wife weak or blind to what was happening. Her faith and love for me provided the strength to fight for our relationship. Part II The addiction raging within my mind was winning. Occasionally, I … Continue reading How Do I Know That I Love Her [Part II]